It was the middle of June and the sun all day had kept right on shining with sweet mightiness. “Stay jovial, please, Artie! Just promise me that. Please stay your old jovial self!” Flossie MacDonald had wiped her napkin across her weeping eyes and told this to Artie Dam the last time she had seen him, which had been on this spectacular evening in June. And he assured her that he would.
They had gone to Spud’s Bar and Grille, the place near Artie’s house that was right there on the water on the coast of Massachusetts; the bay, seen through the windows, was calm, and many boats sat there quietly, sailboats and fishing boats and boats large enough to sleep eight people. The sun, which was not yet fully headed down, shone against the water with a golden brilliance, and when Artie looked at Flossie her large black-rimmed glasses had sun reflecting off them.
He and Flossie had come here every other Tuesday night since Flossie’s husband died last year; her husband had been a retired math professor, and—to Artie’s way of thinking—a regal-looking, thin, hypercritical man.
“He was such an asshole,” Flossie would say each time she and Artie were together, wiping her eyes, mascara dripping down her cheeks. “And I miss him so much!” But this was their last time in the place; Flossie was moving to Ohio to be near her daughter, Sophie. “Oh Artie,” Flossie had said, wrapping her arms around him outside by the door as they said goodbye, “I love you.” And he had told her the same.
As they left the place together, Artie saw the masts of sailboats in the bay, standing tall, motionless. He did not remember ever seeing the water so calm. “Amazing,” he had said to Flossie, and she had said, “What’s amazing is you.”
ARTIE’S WIFE, EVIE, had never cared for Flossie, saying that she was “too much.” And Artie understood, but he loved Flossie for it; he loved her overly made-up face, her too-yellow hair piled on top of her head, the scent of perfume that followed her everywhere, the delicate way she would sit her large body down after waving to him enthusiastically when she came through the heavy wooden door at Spud’s. He loved her, but he was not remotely in love with her.
It was that he could be himself with her; he realized this only later.
“HOW WAS POOR old Flossie?” Evie had asked Artie that night; she was sitting in the living room with a newspaper on her lap, and she looked up at him as he walked into the room. Evie was one of the few people Artie knew who still read a real newspaper.
“She misses Reginald,” Artie said, sitting down in a chair across from her. “She says it every time. Understandable, I guess. They were married forty-two years.” He added, “The water’s beautiful tonight. Flat, flat, flat.”